Here am I

Summer is on the downslide. I return to my beloved Providence College exactly one month from today. I can hardly believe that fact, but then I can believe it. Sometimes I feel like summer has barely started, and in other ways this summer has been has been never-ending. When I came home for the summer, I thought I thought I knew exactly why God brought me home for the summer. But with so many things in life, when I think I have God and his will figured out He shows me otherwise. Although this summer wasn't what I expected it to be, I did learn a lot.

My time at Lake Bronson Baptist Bible Camp is coming to a close. I counsel for a short retreat this weekend and then I am done for the summer. I'm ready to be done. I love kids, I love counseling, I love camp, but I think my time at LBBBC is done. I don't expect that I will work there again, at least not in such a full time capacity. But I gained that of insight about future ministry work from this summer. Including a dang good leadership quote from my boss, Troy. "A leader doesn't have to know everything, a leader just has to know how to serve." That should be on a bookmark, or a bumper sticker. I think I will make that my personal motto for my year in student leadership at Prov.

Providence! I'm so incredibly excited to go back. A couple weeks ago, it hit me. I want to go back. Right this moment. I have a bad case of Prov Ache. When I look back at my year at Prov, I can see so clearly how God used that year. I have never felt so close to God as when I'm at Prov. I see him in people, I see him in my professors, and I see him in the lessons He teaches. Prov is truly the place where God is most real to me. I'm going to be a Resident Assistant there this year. And I couldn't be more excited for it. I think of how Prov impacted me, and for me to get the chance to help other people be impacted....ooooooooh, man, I'm so excited!!!

This past Sunday, I turned 19 years old. I feel really old. This is my last year as a teenager. In some strange way I always felt that I would have most everything, my life included, figured by the time I reached 20. Ha, somehow I don't think that will be happening. But really, I'm okay with not having this whole life thing figured out. I like that my life still has questions, mysteries, and unknown equations. How boring would it be if I knew it all? It was a lovely birthday though. I got the coolest present EVER from my Lyssa. She's an amazing artist and she did a pencil drawing of us. It is soooo cool. I wanted to post it here on my blog, but it won't work...drat. I shall post it at some point though, promise.

I'm lady of the house for this week. My mom is gone for the week to spend time with my grandpa. He had heart surgery on Tuesday. I clean house, make food, do laundry, I even baked cookies tonight. I'm so domestic. I had to make a shopping list for my dad. It's kind of fun actually, I'm looking forward to getting my own apartment someday, buying "house-y", and taking care of my home.

Ooo! The oven just beeped...my cookies are ready!